“When I see you cry, it makes me smile” – Lily Allen
I am not a man-hater but am I a sadist if I like to see men in pain? I’m not talking about relationships. I am referring to males in general including baby boys, grandpas and macho guys. I have a soft spot for men who show some vulnerability. I like to see men begging, bleeding, pleading, weeping. I like to hear wailing and sobbing sounds from men. I sometimes find gratification in repetitively listening to music of a man truthfully singing a sad love song. And when I see a man who is on the verge of crying, I sigh and say ‘ahhhh…. (I’m touched.)’ I like to read letters written with so much pain by men. I also like stories whose male leads fall in desperation.
They say men like women who are weak and vulnerable because they want to take the role of knight in shining armor. By instinct man will want to have a girl he can defend. It is one way of displaying his masculinity. But on my part, it’s the other way around. Though I don’t want a man who is weak and insecure, I like to see men in their most delicate moments. It feels like I want to tap their shoulders, comfort them, cry with them, give them a big warm hug.
Am I cruel to say these things? I will never want to inflict pain to anybody. Never! Men in pain are just rare to find. Some will choose to hide tears and some are naturally expressionless. Between an action star who will promise me he can kill monsters and bring me to the moon and a simple guy on bended knees with Precious Moments eyes, I choose the latter. It’s not the sorrow that counts. It’s the intensity of emotions. I believe men with intense emotions have so much depth and has much passion to fuel life.
I remember my dad was talking about my cousin’s wedding. And all of a sudden, he was on tears as he described how the groom cried when the bride was marching. Honestly, that made me laugh. It shows how sentimental he is and that for me is a lovable trait.
Odyssey, one of the classics of world literature, centers on a Greek hero Odysseus. Interesting to note, the protagonist Odysseus and other men in the epic had a lot of crying scenes. Perhaps, I am no sadist at all. I am just from 8th century BC. I like to see strong mighty men at their weakest.
Nah, I just like men to know how it feels to have dysmenorrhea.
P.S. I can’t hurt a male specimen